Views on Life

So..

Yesterday I went to Hannah & Evi s play.. Nice!!

had interesting chat about the movie plans I have with John..

for wich ive been looking up stuff about government funding & i’m quite sure we can apply

Today I went to the Night of the Proms.. Nice! Shaggy was ok, Joe Cocker was Nice, James Brown was an act to Remember (!) As I said to my mom.. I really wanted to see James Brown! The only other artist I waant to see badly is Barry White.. But sadly enough he’s dead already :’(

And then shit went sour :/ The bus was too cold, The movie was downright painfull (bout a woman with 2 kids losing her husband :/) and after that we tried starting the car & it wouldnt start :/ AGONY Tough Thomas brought te resque – luckilly!!

There s only one thing I find hard to understand :/ Howcome I couldnt get to Tom, Dirk and Kenneth!! I called them at least 10 times (each) & none of em picked up their fuckin cells! UN FUCKIN BELIEVABLE! I mean, Dirkie ALWAYS picks up his cell & the ONE time I REALLY need ANY of them to pick up their cell.. None of them do! THE FUCKIN WHATEVER! Its really beyond my comprehension! .. I really dont understand! Maybe because I was calling with my moms cell, but still.. If someone calls you 10 times, you normally pick up the fuckin phone, no? Figuring its urgent & shite!

Last time I was playing Kenneth called me, not wanting to ineterrupt the game I didnt answer my phone but when he called for the 3rd time, I answered just because he might have been in any trouble or whatever! But :s and of all ppl, Tom & Dirkie, whom I tough I always could depend on.. This is REALLY wierd.. to me :s

Trough the evening & day, with all that happened & so on, it once more became undeniable that my dad is dead :/ This morning when I woke up it was the first tought on my mind.. I was an hour or so in “slightly awake” state & it didnt leave my mind for a sec.. & then later on with the whole car crap :s Painfull :’(

But anywho.. Sleep now!

tomorrow games thing in holland, gotta be at JCs place at 9.30 to depart, so.. SLEEP NOOOOW

Sayonara

^_^

Upset.. I find myself VERY upset with someone. She probably doesnt even realise this, neither would she guess or even understand why but still – the feeling is there!

And from when I had it before.. Its something that burns all the bridges. Once I have it, there s no getting rid of..

I talked to Ashes yesterday!

We talked about death.. I told her about my dad (I had waited because I didnt think such news would do her good in the week she was having her lil darling) It flet good talking to her about it!

I’m updating my iPod some.. I had some mps waiting around.. 453 are now being uploaded – yay

Stitch is buying an iPod too.. exactly the same – yay

I was still able to surprise him with one of the easy things about an iPod.. YAY

Im so glad my samba is working again!!!!!!!! I missed my music

now just to get the sound & crap working

.. First some java & cobol!!

I figured out the cobol.el.gz riddle, but now it just crashed as it loads

anywho – YAY

Ooh.. I learned today that Andries started blogging – check the friends list & that my fav fruit on the web picked up her blog too – YAY

Sleepy time

Emacs fun

yeah!!

*puke*

they really have good info’s *rolleyes*

Got stuck with a .el.gz file I desperately need to use

& now I need to figure out what the fuck that file is, how I use it & where I need to put it.. and how & …

samba is up again tough

I so need to get that all in line so that I can FINALLY get to my school work

I feel like progging Cobol but I m not able .. yet

(actually I already am but Id lack some comfort I wouldnt like to give up *blushes*

I’m on coffee again :/

.. reemerging xemacs & the sumo pack.. pitty clomo isnt part of the fuckin 15MB sumo pack *rolleyes*

..

…

…..

ok, I give up for today

I managed to get a wierd but relatively expected screen

so YAY

& ..

More Tomorow!

Sleeeeeep

.. I remember a dream I had this night..

or at least am starting to remember it

Seems that my mind s still in places I tought I left behind (gave up) a while ago.. :/

hm :s

The party on Friday was FUN! Really Evil

The games on Saturday were fun too.. First we played “Beer Money” – surprisingly Nice and then we had a “Zombies!!” fest hehe.. Played for about 4 hours & .. yeah, it was Fun I came close to winning in the middle and did a miraculous come back in the end, so that I surprisingly won..

Nice game! But I think Id rather buy Beer money (or lunch money or ..) than Zombies..

Im looking forward to tomorrows Robinson..

And now, Food!

school was ok

Not as interesting as I had hoped tough

Spent some money

Spent some nice moments with Anne.. We can still spend enjoyable time together. We can still just be together & talk as we used to. Its nice to know a girl who knows you & above all accepts you as you are! This on the other hand shows how I close myself in normal social contact. Amazing. At any rate, I need someone like that around on a full time base Not Anne ofcourse! That moment is gone for the both of us.. She seems very happy with her curent bf.. A nice match!

I finally have decent file explorers.. of wich 2 3d versions funny!

This means I can clean up my mess my home dir!!

I still have loads of work to do :/ GIFT, Samba, Sound, …..

RoD meeting was fun..

Sleep now

Cool game!

played from 12 till 3 with Stitch

Evil!

The game shifted constantly

Stitch had me at a point where I wasnt even sure if it mattered if we played the next round (but we did & the game turned around again).. it was Nice! And amazingly tough it looked bad at times, I even won (exhaustion race with resources & stuff..)

Has a degree of luck involved too

I kinda want more scenarios

& am looking forward to playing the 3 plyr Tree of Lordacil scenario

AND I’m looking forward to the expansion version!

And now, Sleepy timeaaah

The un easy feeling has gone, tough just beyond eyesighty.. anywho, thats cool

the pain wont go leave me be, but thats normal, given (much) time that ll ease too

& the malaise.. :/ well, that s not gone either but it ll take less time than the pain, so or at least I hope so

I’m FUCKIN bussy these days!

I wanted today to do some important shite (like school) but since I promissed jack to help Tinne tonight, my plans are crossed once again! Aarghl! I hope I’m able to do what I’m supposed to Altough I KNOW I wont be able to

I want to play WC!!!!!

And the next days will be equally bussy so :’(

Yesterday was fun! Onvrije Schipper, Polle Polle, Casa di Kaishi, .. fun!

Ohh, I just read Shell’s blog & she copied the Bloody Long Questionaire.. Its interesting

Blah!

Reboot to my new kernel!!

& read some

& FINALLY get working on that comp I have waiting here!

ah & I might even put the sides back on my box!!!!

IN ONE TRY..TYPE YOUR NAME WITH YOUR:

FINGERS: gert

CHIN: tgerrerty

ONE FINGER WITH EYES CLOSED: gert

CHEEK: tgert(tc

ELBOW: tgerrtft

LIPS: grrt

PALM: gertr

BACK OF HAND: ggert

NOSE: t”‘(

TONGUE: gert

—————–DESCRIBE—————

YOUR HERITAGE: eh??? ehrm – Belgian?

THE SHOES YOU WORE TODAY: none so far (but probably Blue DVS)

YOUR EYES: No Clue.. blueish? Greenish? Red in the picture on my fact sheet..

YOUR WEAKNESS: memorising things

YOUR FEARS: losing limbs

ONE THING YOU’D LIKE TO ACHIEVE: to uphold the luxuary I like

—————–WHAT IS——————

YOUR THOUGHTS FIRST WAKING UP: Aaarrghl!!!!

THE FIRST FEATURE YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX: Piercings

YOUR BEST PHYSICAL FEATURE: Lips (someone once told me.. long time ago – I dont believe her)

YOUR BEDTIME: ehrm.. from 10 at night till 11 in the morning

YOUR GREATEST ACCOMPLISHMENT: ehrm :s

YOUR MOST MISSED MEMORY: wierd enough my dad

—————–YOU PREFER——————

PEPSI OR COKE: They both taste like crap

MCDONALD’S OR BURGER KING: McD

SINGLE OR GROUP DATES: Single

ADIDAS OR NIKE: Whatever

CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA: Chocolate

CAPPUCCINO OR COFFEE: Coffee (as a mather of fact.. naah too late)

—————–DO YOU——————

SMOKE: Motherfuckin Hell NO!

CUSS: Eh?

TAKE A SHOWER EVERYDAY: during summer.. Winter, every other day

HAVE A CRUSH(ES): sadly enough yes Just one tough

WHO ARE THEY: Doesnt mather

DO YOU THINK YOU’VE BEEN IN LOVE?: Yes

WANT TO GO TO COLLEGE: I am in college

LIKE HIGH SCHOOL: I had fun there

WANT TO GET MARRIED: jup

TYPE WITH YOUR FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS: Whetever key I strike is the right one!

GET MOTION SICKNESS: I used to

THINK YOU’RE ATTRACTIVE: .. no

THINK YOU’RE A HEALTH FREAK: Nop

GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS: yeah

LIKE THUNDERSTORMS: A Lot – but not when I need to use the comp

PLAY AN INSTRUMENT: not really

————IN THE PAST MONTH DID:/:HAVE YOU————–

DRANK ALCOHOL: Jup

SMOKE(D): NO

DONE A DRUG: Jup (alcohol = drug!)

HAVE SEX: no :’(

MADE OUT: no :’(

GO ON A DATE: nope

GO TO THE MALL: the mall.. we dont have that all too much in Belgium

BEEN ON STAGE: Life is a stage

BEEN DUMPED: luckely no

GONE SKATING: .. no

MADE HOMEMADE COOKIES: Nope

BEEN IN LOVE: maybe yeah

DYED YOUR HAIR: No way I like blonde too much

STOLEN ANYTHING: No

—————–HAVE YOU EVER——————

FLOWN ON A PLANE: yes

MISSED SCHOOL BECAUSE IT WAS RAINING?: ehrm.. dont think so (its belgium, it ALWAYS rains)

TOLD A GUY/GIRL THAT YOU LIKED THEM?: Countless times

CRIED DURING A MOVIE?: .. no, I dont easilly REALLY cry

EVER THOUGHT AN ANIMATED CHARACTER WAS HOT?: I love Manga (asin YES)

HAD AN IMAGINARY FRIEND: ehrm.. dont think so.. eh.. AH! Yes

BEEN ON STAGE?: Yes

CUT YOUR HAIR: Who hasnt .. oh wait.. What hair :s .. Whatever, Who hasnt

HAD CRUSH ON A TEACHER?: ehrm.. kinda

PLAYED A GAME THAT REQUIRED REMOVAL OF CLOTHING? wierd enough not

BEEN TRASHED OR EXTREMELY INTOXICATED.. Several times already (auch!)

BEEN CAUGHT “DOING SOMETHING”: jup *blush*

BEEN CALLED A TEASE: Yeah & I Like it hehe

GOTTEN BEATEN UP?: not really

BEEN IN A FIGHT: yeah.. altough I really didnt want to

SHOPLIFTED: No (actually really No )

—————–THE FUTURE——————

AGE YOU HOPE TO BE MARRIED: late 20s

NUMBERS AND NAMES OF CHILDREN: .. between 0 & 2 and ehrm.. something nice tough wierd

DESCRIBE YOUR DREAM WEDDING: .. :s

HOW DO YOU WANT TO DIE?: quick, painless, messy

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?: Happy

WHAT COUNTRY WOULD YOU MOST LIKE TO VISIT?: .. ehrm .. Cuba s high on the list

—————–OPPOSITE/SAME SEX——————

BEST EYE COLOR: Blue (whatever really)

BEST HAIR COLOR: Blonde (natural pls )

SHORT OR LONG HAIR: Long hair

BEST HEIGHT: 1.75 (its an observation, not a choice)

BEST WEIGHT: not too thin (!!) not too heavy

BEST FIRST DATE LOCATION: first date ? :s

BEST FIRST KISS LOCATION: .. Anywhere really, its the person & the mood that count

—————–NUMBER OF—————–

NUMBER OF BOYFRIENDS/GIRLFRIENDS YOU’VE HAD: only counting serious ones, 5

NUMBER OF KISSES YOU’VE GIVEN: Who s counting

NUMBER OF DRUGS TAKEN ILLEGALLY: eh? ehrm.. 2?

NUMBER OF PEOPLE I COULD TRUST WITH MY LIFE: quite a lot I think

NUMBER OF PIERCINGS: 1

NUMBER OF TATTOOS: 0

NUMBER OF TIMES MY NAME HAS APPEARED IN THE NEWSPAPER?: No clue

NUMBER OF SCARS ON MY BODY: too much to count

NUMBER OF THINGS IN MY PAST THAT I REGRET: nothing that I’m responsible for

—————-FAVORITES—————

SHAMPOO: Tahiti Black

FAV COLOR: red, yellow

DAY/NIGHT: Night

SUMMER/WINTER: both

LACE OR SATIN: Lace

FAVE CARTOON CHARACTER: .. Gally maybe, or Yoko..

FAVE FOOD: Chocolate, Tasty spicy food, meat, ..

FAVE MOVIES: Ehrm, difficult question.. The ghost in the shell, Moulin Rouge, Alien, James Bond, The Village, ..

FAVE SPORT: Snowboarding

—————-RIGHT NOW——————

WEARING: Black Venoms, some Tshirt, Carhartt pullover

DRINKING: nothing

THINKING ABOUT: sleeping

LISTENING TO: The radio – Stu Bru

—————IN THE LAST 24 HRS——————

CRIED: No

WORN JEANS: Yes – Venom (its simply very baggy jeans)

MET SOMEONE NEW ONLINE: ehrm.. yeah, he was new to me online tough I already knew him irl – Tubby

DONE LAUNDRY: Nope

DROVE A CAR: Nope

TALKED ON THE PHONE: too much

—————DO YOU BELIEVE IN————–

YOURSELF: Yes

YOUR FRIENDS: uhu – yeah

SANTA CLAUS: ofcourse

TOOTH FAIRY: :s we dont have her here

DESTINY/FATE: .. no

ANGELS: I know some Angelic girls

GHOSTS: .. nope

UFO’S: yes (them simply being Unidentified Flying Objects, asin anything flying I cant put a name on)

GOD: nope

——–FRIENDS AND LIFE——————

DO YOU EVER WISH YOU HAD ANOTHER NAME?: nope

DO YOU HAVE A GIRLFRIEND/BOYFRIEND?: no

DO YOU LIKE ANYONE?: Yeah

WHICH ONE OF YOUR FRIENDS ACTS THE MOST LIKE YOU?: cant put a name to it

WHO HAVE YOU KNOWN THE LONGEST OF YOUR FRIENDS?: .. Tom & Dirk I guess

ARE YOU CLOSE TO ANY FAMILY MEMBER?: hm.. close

WHO DO YOU HANG AROUND THE MOST?: ehrm.. John, Stitch, Dirkie, ..

WHEN HAVE YOU CRIED THE MOST: When Anne dumped me I guess.. No, I cried worse when my dad died.. Anne just seems worse because it was public..

WHAT’S THE BEST FEELING IN THE WORLD?: making Love to someone (not sex, mind you.. love!)

WORST FEELING?: .. my back to 15 moods

WHAT TIME IS IT NOW?: ehrm .. 5.13 in the morning

——————-CURRENT————– —–

CURRENT MOOD: Sleepy

CURRENT MUSIC: Stu Bru commercials

CURRENT TASTE: neutral

CURRENT HAIR: Blonde dreadlocks

CURRENT ANNOYANCE: my right arm

CURRENT SMELL: neutral

CURRENT THING I OUGHT TO BE DOING: Sleeping!!

CURRENT WINDOWS OPEN: gAIM, Xterm, Glitterplagues DA, my Blogger acc

CURRENT DESKTOP PICTURE: Gunnm bg

CURRENT BOOK: Tanya Huff – Scholar of Decay (a ravenloft book)

CURRENT JOB: Student

————–DO YOU EVER/HAVE—————-

A DREAM THAT KEEPS COMING BACK?: .. not that I can remember

REMEMBER YOUR FIRST LOVE?: Yes

STILL LOVE HIM/HER: No

READ THE NEWSPAPER?: sometimes

BELIEVE IT’S POSSIBLE TO REMAIN FAITHFUL FOREVER?: .. I do think so yes

CONSIDER YOURSELF TOLERANT OF OTHERS?: Yes

CONSIDER LOVE A MISTAKE?: no

LIKE THE TASTE OF ALCOHOL?: No

HAVE A FAVORITE CANDY?: yes

DO WELL IN SCHOOL?: honestly – no

WEAR HATS?: no

CLOSE FRIENDS?: yes

WISH ON STARS?: No

LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?: ehrm.. I myself do

CARE ABOUT LOOKS?: honestly? yes I do..

—————LOVE AND STUFF—————-

GAY? STRAIGHT? BI? NULL?: Straight .. altough .. isnt everyone slightly bi?

FIRST CRUSH: ehrm

EVER BEEN IN A THING CALLED LOVE?: yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT?: .. almost

DO YOU BELIEVE IN “THE ONE?”: the one as in neo? (in the footprints of Lara & Jena)

…………..ARE YOU A………………

WUSS: nope

DRUGGY: No

DAYDREAMER: .. yes

FREAK: some say I am

DORK: I’m a docter, scotty, not a damn dork!

BITCH/ASSHOLE: .. actually no

BRAT: .. no

SARCASTIC: When needed

SHY: seldom

TALKATIVE: sometimes

ADVENTUROUS: hehe, jup!

JOKER: .. I guess so

…………….LAST (THANK GOD)……………

LAST BOOK YOU READ: Chet Williamson – Mordenheim (Again, a Ravenloft book)

LAST MOVIE YOU SAW: The Village

LAST THING YOU HAD TO DRINK: Lipton Ice Tea Punch

LAST TIME YOU SHOWERED: ehrm .. Yesteday

LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE: Stitch

.. whow, what a questionaire – lol

and now.. SLEEEP

yeah, so I did the changes (finally)

As you can see I now have a Title and a Link part.. Both optional and working

yay

I should really recompile my kernel.. Funny how I never them right the first time! Once again I added the annoying priority shifting crap, making my X feel very windows like under stress (but preform better in important processes because they get the most processor time yada yada best for desktops my asssss!) Gimme the “Everyone s Equal” way (best for servers & other crap TM) I’ll probably even screw up burn processes this way! – dont want to find out! Anywho, its ANOYING!

Compiling on 2 virtual TTYs over SSH at the moment.. yay

I helped Jack with his comp today – more yay

I unpacked & read trough Warcraft The Boardgame today – funfun

blah

I should really fix the link thingy